What is this place?

It's so weird to be an adult with a full time job!

I've been thinking about this place that I'm in for a while now. I'm done with school, I'm working full time in the career I've been trained for...it's actually a weird place to be in. All I have done with my life is prepare, prepare, prepare. Go through public school to prepare for college. Go to college to prepare for a career. Go, go, go. Do, do, do.

And here I am: 21 years old, a job, no school, living at home with Mom and Dad, and single. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not hating on anything here. I like living at home (most of the time). It saves me money, and I get along with my parents just fine. Single is okay, because I'm waiting for the one God wants for me. Things are actually pretty good, right?

Sort of. This is where the weird part comes in. Up until this point in my life, everything has changed and then changed some more. It was a change when I first entered my first relationship and had to get used to sharing so much of my time with another person. It was a change when that relationship failed and I realized that dating wasn't how I wanted to live my life. It was a change to graduate high school and go to college, and it was a change to go from an English major at a four-year university to being a nursing student at a community college. It was a change to graduate nursing school and start the career I had been training for.

Here I am on the other side of it all. I look back at all the growing I did as a person. It never seemed to end! And now? Now I feel stagnant. Now I feel like the changing is at a standstill and I'm just waiting.........for what? For Prince Charming to come and sweep me off my feet? For some kind of adventure that God has in store for me but I have no idea what it is? Both of these things would be great, but there is no sight of them happening right now. I would love to go on an awesome adventure with God (like when I went on a mission trip to Guatemala). I love to experience new things. It would be really awesome to meet the guy God has picked for me and be able to undertake a change in my personal life.

I'm not sure when God's timing will bring these types of adventures into my life. Patience is not one of my best characteristics, but I'm trying. I have to remind myself that God's timing is perfect, no matter how restless I become.

Here's some advice for anyone who is in college (or even high school): enjoy all the changes. Life is ever-changing and it is beautiful. But sometimes, there are times when life feels stagnant and void of changing and you have to just deal with it.

So here I am, trying to deal with it with my God. It is my prayer that I would learn something (or many things) in this time and that it would not just be an emo time for me to whine about how grass is greener on the other side.

Happy Labor Day!